User blog:T-T vladnyk/why

So, I did not know what to do so I decided to look through my blog posts on this account and it caused a variety of emotions. I wanted to remind myself what I did in the past ( spoiler: It went badly :/ ). I want everybody to read this blog post completely. Regard this blog as some kind of manifesto or something similar to it.

To begin with, I experienced strong cringe. To be more exact, some of the blogs are still hilarious, though, but the most are so cringy that I committed self-harm due to an abnormally big number of facepalms per second. It is not that I am not cringy anymore (In opposite, I believe I have actually become even worse in comparison to what I was before), but I feel I got rid of toxicity inside me. For instance, I am not as biased towards ideas I don't agree with as I was earlier and I act less stupid. In addition, my English skills have improved a lot since then. I also noticed I was doing many dumb grammar and spelling mistakes. I am glad I am changing in a better way. I hope I will not become very mature, though. Yet, I have a strange concern that I have ADHD: I miss a lot of details, can be really distracted and become bored within a few minutes, have difficulty maintaining focus on one task and a lot of other. I hate myself so much because of it :(

All in all, I have really changed a lot and I every day my longing to forget everything in the past is becoming bigger and bigger. I wish I had not been that stupid when I was younger. Unfortunately, the past lies in the past and I cannot change it.

I am not sure whether this is a comeback. I am not sure whether I will still stay active in this Wikia. Discord server is a place for shitposts of Olo and Davi, who have become so unfunny I consider suicide as an option to end my life every time I accidentally click on TFOE server on discord. The Wikia itself is more appealing, though, but I still find it quite dead. I don't mind new users, but the overall quality of content has been slightly decreasing since a wave of newcomers. This is not only on this Wikia but in mapping in general. Please, correct me if I am wrong. I think I'll just continue participating in KdM and Mappervision. On the other hand, I've got a weird will to become a mapper for a while to make at least a little changes in this stagnating community. I keep an idea of moving this Wikia into a new place (creating a new Wikia. To my mind, FANDOM is the best platform for a mapping community.

I really want you to write your opinion and thoughts about it in comments, we can make a good talk!